There are time when I feel a pools of motivation across my body. The same goes of the feeling low motivation in life. It’s hard to control it, when my life’s not going at the right direction.
Often, I thought life is like a river that flow easily as it seems. Sometimes, we feel so easy to lift up life to the way it should be. Then, we face obstacle and stop halfway wondering should we go on or no. Other route might be a better path with less obstacle?
After form five, I simply chose a route for myself which is to form six. That is the only offer my dad could give me. I can’t go to college unless I can get loan. I can’t go to private university out of Penang, unaffordable on living cost. PTPTN wasn’t widely offered on private colleges.
Life in form six wasn’t easy for me. I gave myself too much of hope and aim. Followed by the stress I am undergoing is not producing any result. I didn’t do well in form six. I was in a great depression that whole year. Feeling so low that I couldn’t strike anything in life. At that time, studying is almost everything in my life.
Friends around keep telling me, without a good result you can still soar your wings and succeed even higher than those who did well in studies if you can perform yourself on a correct path. At that time, I was too pressured with the performance of myself and desperate for something anew.
After form six, I went look on newspaper jobstreet to look for a job. I’ve got 7 months of break before I enter university. Desperately, I need a job. Without a job, having to taste life without anything to do for 7 months can kill me. Sit down in front of my computer, I start filling up the resume form from jobstreet and apply whatever job that probably they will take me in.
When I get phone calls, it means chances for me to perform. I must not fail them to see the potential inside me. It was not easy at all. I had to go to places I never been to around my state for interviews. The most difficult part is that, I have to tell lies in order to be hired. I cheated them that I’m not going to further my studies because my result is too bad for university entry. All I want is a well paid office hour job.
After all the interviews, asking me to wait phone calls I still haven’t get a job. That really pushes me down. Last try, I went to shopping mall walk all the shops and place my name for a job vacancy. The very next day, I get another interview from jobstreet ad and get the job.
That working experience I have, showed me working life without a degree can soar up higher than the people who get a degree. I lost my dream of studying hard since that. Even now, I’m don’t know why I am in university studying Electronics Engineering. All because my parents want me to be a graduate.
Hi, I’m Electronic Engineering students too.
I agree with you. Studying is very tiring and boring. Studying in Form6 is very tough. Getting into Form6 destroy all my “power” to study hard. No matter how hard I study, still get low marks.
Now, I’m in Electronic Eng. Yet, I’m not sure is this the correct way for me. Anyway, I just want to get the degree certificate and HOPE for a better job.
Some people say: Graduate = Jobless.
Hi Lee,
We are both at the same roof I guess. I’m in second year going to third year soon. Days after days, I kept feeling years of life in university is a waste. It’s sad to think about yet I can’t do anything superb that can change my destiny.
Just curious, why do you say working life without a degree is better than for someone with one?
I have to disagree, but I hope you don’t mind me placing my two cents worth.
I believe most students in Malaysia feel that way. I know I felt the same thing when I was in Form 5. SPM was dumb. Going to classes just to memorize facts, and how to answer exam questions was tiring. The root cause was the Msian education system does not promote creative and fun learning. I may have been lucky to experience high school and varsity in Canada … but I must say that my perception of studying totally change. It was tough, yes, but it was meaningful, fun, and challenging.
I think Graduate = Jobless is an overgeneralization. The perception that most people have of university studies is that you learn high-level stuff. To some extent it is true, depending on your field of study. But I the crucial learning period is not for academic purposes, but interpersonal skills. A professor once told me, “Your degree completion just proves to employers that you are able to learn. The real learning begins when you start working, because that’s reality. It is application of knowledge, and not everything is as straight forward as ABC anymore”
A friend of mine graduated university with a degree while the top student of our year graduated with a distinction. But in the end who got the job at the same interview? It was my friend because she could demonstrate her interpersonal skills that will be useful to her performance at work.
Hang in there buddy. School sucks almost always … but there’s more to life than just passing exams and what not. Parents on the other hand can be overbearing. But all it takes is patience and looking at the big picture.
Dear CY,
I’m not so confident if my way of thinking is correct or wrong. Anyhow, I’ll explain to you how I’ve been thinking.
Your see, in Malaysia we have to do 2 years form 6 and 4 years of degree to get an engineering degree.
After form5, I have to study for 6 years before I can graduate. Maybe I have chosen the long path. In order to get affordable education here, that’s the only route I can choose.
A degree changes a person’s status in the society. When comes to job hunting, I’m sure a degree will open more doors.
6 years of studying before getting a degree. 6 years is too long for a person to undergo a degree. I don’t understand why we can’t shorten the period of time for a student to get a degree.
A degree:
4years for engineering degree is too relaxing. I think 3years is relevant. Our Malaysia Engineering Board wouldn’t recognize a 3years engineering degree done in Malaysia. But if it is done in UK for 3 years, it is recognized.
Full government loan available to recognized degree only.
Pre-U:
2years of form6 should be done in 1 year. Chinese would get few percent of chances to enter matriculation in 1year program.
As you can see, a student can get an engineering degree in 4years if the parents can are financially strong. On the other side, a student must undergo 6 years if the parents are financially poor.
With the different by 2years, I believe the working experience out in society is more valuable than the studying experience in university.
Dear jjme,
You are lucky to get out of Malaysia. The learning environment here is sucks.
There is no power of learning in class.
All the students are very good at self-study.
The top students usually don’t go to class. And score with flying color.
If you go to class always, and didn’t get good grades, you are much of a loser then.
So why am I living in university filled with time table for class session end up skipping them all for a longer sleep or to catch a movie in the cinema?
Even if I skip all the classes, I can still score in exam if I work it out.
I just need a complete tutorial solution, lecture notes available online, do all past year paper and you get good grades.
The problem with me here is that, I don’t find any meaning behind it.
Fact, what we are learning now is not applicable much in the future.
When studying pre-u, we know we are going to use it in university. But now, what we are studying is just to get a degree that don’t bring us far.
Anyway, thanks for the comment. I know somehow I need to find a better way of learning and fill my time more with improvement before I graduate.
Hi Suding,
What a coincidence. I’m also in year 2 and now is my revision week. Next semester will be my 3rd year.
I’m trying my best not to let any subject fail. Trying very hard and sometimes quite sad and feel my life is bored and not fun at all.
My others friends are enjoying their life but I’m not.
I tell myself: After graduate, I will not go for master anymore. Degree is enough for me.
If time can be reversed, I wish I can choose Business subjects not Engineering.
Don’t be too down and try your best. At least you are not alone, I’m in the same situation like you. Let’s try our best together. Good luck and all the best.